This blog was supposed to be about a healthy, happy pregnancy. Unfortunately, this pregnancy has not felt happy or healthy so far. I've blogged a couple of times over the last few weeks and given a glimpse into what's been going on with my health, but I haven't elaborated much. And I've had people ask me "well, what's WRONG with you? What's going on?" And the answer I've had to give is "We don't know. We're waiting on the test results". But what I haven't shared with a lot of people (for fear of being judged among other reasons) is what I have been experiencing. So I'll take the time to do that now. Please keep in mind that, yes, a lot of these symptoms are normal for pregnancy. But the extended amount of time (6-8 weeks) that mine have been going on, coupled with the extremeness of them, is what has been a concern. :)
I have had a lot of trouble sleeping. Sometimes I can't get calmed down at night, but mostly I just wake up and can't go back to sleep because it's like my body is wired up. I wake up, go to the bathroom, and by the time I'm back in bed I've got knots in my stomach and feel like any hope of sleep is gone.For awhile, when I was waking up, my heart would pound and I would be dizzy. I would have to breathe and try every trick in the book to try and get my body to calm down. Over the last week or two, it has gotten better. I go to sleep easily (sometimes with the help of a sleep aid) and usually stay asleep now until the early-mid morning hours. (Before, I was up every 30-60 minutes and it would take me easily 30 minutes-3 hours to get back to sleep). I am still waking up earlier than my body needs to, but I'm sleeping for good stretches for now.
Waking up is pretty miserable. I'm shaky, jittery, and sick almost immediately. My stomach is nauseated, almost as if I have stage fright. My heart rate is elevated. I feel anxious and worried. I lay in bed for awhile because A) I can tell my body is not ready to get up and needs more sleep and B) Jumping right into a routine will often make things worse. With Abbie being older and having a love of cartoons, I can usually slip back to sleep for 20-30 minutes. But it typically takes me 2 hours or so to do so. My body doesn't tend to calm down until 9-10 am, if even then.
As the day goes on, sometimes things get better. But for the most part, my days have been plagued by the same nervous stomach, elevated heart rate, shaky and sweaty hands, and the barrage of thoughts that have come along with them.
I have a lot more going on than just the feelings of horrible stage fright, though. When I stand up, my blood pressure drops for about 30 seconds and the room spins. Now I've had this for years, but over the last few weeks it's been every.single.time I stand up from a squatting or laying position. I'm really weak, often feeling my heart rate elevated to about twice it's normal level just from playing tag with Abbie or climbing a set of stairs. I could easily take 2-3 naps a day. My stomach is often upset for a good portion of the day. I can hardly eat even when I'm super-hungry. My eyes are incredibly sensitive to the sunlight. Sometimes my vision is blurry.
I find myself going to my mom's whenever I can just because I get overwhelmed and so easily exhausted just trying to carry on with Abbie throughout the day. Having someone else there to help even with her, as independent as she can be, is such a load off of me. Especially when all I feel like doing is laying on the couch. I haven't been driving much because a couple of weeks ago, I ended up having horrible panic attacks every time I got behind the wheel (my heart rate would go through the roof for no reason and my hands and feet would eventually shake uncontrollably).
And a lot of people may be thinking "ok, those all kind of sound like silly little things that can be dealt with". But the fact is, when you put all of them together and they're all day long, they're not. And the constant stress of all of them over the last 6 weeks or so has only made me feel worse and worry more. It's exhausting. And depressing. I'm not enjoying things the way I used to because I'm SO preoccupied with what my body is feeling like. I have found myself struggling to even revel in Abbie's everyday activities. I've talked with my healthcare provider about even doing antidepressants or anti-anxieties. (She did end up sending in one that was safe for pregnancy, but other than knocking me out and helping me sleep, it didn't do much). But at the same time, it just didn't feel RIGHT. I still feel like there's something I'm missing.
A couple of nights ago, I was at a really low point. I prayed and pleaded with God to please shed some light onto all of this. I have been beginning to feel like these issues are never going to end. And I was wondering WHY I had all this going on. WHAT had brought all this on? This pregnancy was really the biggest change in our lives. When I woke up the next morning, it was almost like a voice said to me "Melissa, go back and look into the hormonal imbalances that cause the anxiety/depression symptoms you're having" (Because those were really the 2 big things I was starting to identify with. Although they weren't the underlying issues, the fears and frustrations I was having were really what was beginning to get to me. After all, my life had been over-taken by these symptoms and issues for weeks now).
Now let me put a side note into this rambling. If you don't know, I have had adrenal issues before. I have treated them for the last couple of years and it's worked beautifully.Until I got pregnant and things spun out of control. If you don't know, the adrenals are the hormonal gland that
affect your stress level and therefore "do" a lot of other things to
your body if they're out of whack. However, I have never sought out treatment for any other hormonal issues nor have I ever had hormone replacement therapy or anything like that.
So I googled. And while I know that's not the best solution, some interesting things immediately popped up.
Symptoms of low cortisol (a hormone regulated by the adrenals)
Symptoms of adrenal fatigue
Hormonal imbalances in women: what causes depression and anxiety (followed by more information on estrogen, progesterone, and cortisol).
It was like a light bulb went off that said "hey! remember?!?! You've had adrenal problems before! You've had hormonal imbalances that threw your body off in this exact same way! REMEMBER?!?!"
I'm also going to take this time to put in two good snippets of information regarding cortisol levels and symptoms of adrenal fatigue (just in case you'd like to check them with mine. lol)
www.stopthethyroidmadness.com/adrenal-info/symptoms-low-cortisol/
http://www.womentowomen.com/adrenalhealth/symptoms-adrenalfatigue.aspx
And there it all was. Everything I was going through. On my computer screen. In one little list.
Do I know yet for sure what's going on with my body? No. Do I hope I'll get some real, concrete answers when I go back and see the specialist today? Yes yes yes!
But I wanted to write this down. I wanted to share it. Because I know if this were cancer or any other tragic disease, I would be reaching out and telling people. And I would be fighting for my life with every ounce of energy I had in me.
And I feel like I literally have been fighting for my life. I feel like everyday has been such a living hell. And I have prayed and prayed and tried to be as strong and uplifting to myself as I can be. I have reached out to my husband and my parents and tried to get as much support as I can. But nearly every minute of every day for the last few weeks has been a fighting struggle. And I wanted to say that. I wanted to tell people that it may seem weird because I don't have a diagnosis yet and that these may seem like things I could and should just "Get over".
But whatever is going on has overtaken my body and it's been really, really, really tough. So I wanted to put that out there. I've been suffering silently for the last few weeks and I feel like it's made me feel even more alienated. And I'd like to get rid of some of that alienation.
I hope your day is blessed and I'm praying we'll come back from the doctor this afternoon with ground-breaking news!
Melissa
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
A God thing? Or just a thing?
I have not been blogging as much about the topics I wanted to. And the reason is, as I've mentioned, I have been having a LOT of health and personal issues. A lot.
Although I haven't talked with a lot of people about it, my immediate family has been well-aware of the hell I've been going through. And I won't go into all the details because the truth is we don't KNOW all the details. We're not sure exactly what is going on but it would appear that there are probably a lot of hormonal things going on that are throwing my body off. And you can imagine how all the hormonal changes of pregnancy don't make that any better. And there are many other things. But again, I'm not going to go into all of it. I'll just say it's been pretty horrible.
But I'm also feeling a lot of confusion. Many of you know that I have been working on my teaching degree for over 7 years now. I've always felt like teaching was my calling and my passion, that it was what I was absolutely meant to do. But because of these issues, I have had to quit my teaching job. Now this was not my long-term teaching job. But having to quit it is a big deal because we had a very specific plan as to how the next 12-15 months of our lives were supposed to go. (Don't laugh! ;-))
I was supposed to teach through August. After my contract was up, I got to take a week off and then I would start student teaching. (I have taken all the courses I need for my degree; the only part left of my degree is student teaching). I would student teach from the end of August until the middle of December. This worked well when we found out we were pregnant, too, because the baby is not due until Jan 20. Then I would substitute, tutor, and do whatever else I needed to do until the 2013-2014 school year started. Hopefully I would secure a job during the spring/summer.
But having to quit my job now derails us a bit because it brings up the question: CAN I student teach? CAN I finish my degree? CAN I even teach long-term?
And what's so confusing about all of this is that this is NOT the first time this has happened. Two years ago, I experienced similar, debilitating health issues and had to quit going to school and working. When I pulled out of school, the student teaching I was signed up to do the next semester was ruined. I had to pull out because I hadn't finished my course requirements. I was able to return to work part-time a few months later and have been doing good ever since.
But now here we are again... on the verge of finishing my degree and being smacked upside the head with all these issues that could possibly mean not being able to do anything I thought I was going to do.
It's just very confusing. I don't know if it's a God thing, a Devil thing.... or just a THING.
I know the only real thing I can do here is pray. Pray that God would answer that looming question and show me what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. Pray that God would show me if all these health issues are for a greater purpose or if they're just a stumbling block.
I'd like to get this blog "on track" and write about the topics I'd planned.... health and wellness during pregnancy, great recipes, workouts, etc. But right now, this is where I'm at with my pregnancy. This is where being pregnant has taken me.
I pray that your day and your week are a blessing! And I'll gladly accept any prayers and well-wishes for the situations our family is going through right now as we sort through this muddled mess.
Melissa
Although I haven't talked with a lot of people about it, my immediate family has been well-aware of the hell I've been going through. And I won't go into all the details because the truth is we don't KNOW all the details. We're not sure exactly what is going on but it would appear that there are probably a lot of hormonal things going on that are throwing my body off. And you can imagine how all the hormonal changes of pregnancy don't make that any better. And there are many other things. But again, I'm not going to go into all of it. I'll just say it's been pretty horrible.
But I'm also feeling a lot of confusion. Many of you know that I have been working on my teaching degree for over 7 years now. I've always felt like teaching was my calling and my passion, that it was what I was absolutely meant to do. But because of these issues, I have had to quit my teaching job. Now this was not my long-term teaching job. But having to quit it is a big deal because we had a very specific plan as to how the next 12-15 months of our lives were supposed to go. (Don't laugh! ;-))
I was supposed to teach through August. After my contract was up, I got to take a week off and then I would start student teaching. (I have taken all the courses I need for my degree; the only part left of my degree is student teaching). I would student teach from the end of August until the middle of December. This worked well when we found out we were pregnant, too, because the baby is not due until Jan 20. Then I would substitute, tutor, and do whatever else I needed to do until the 2013-2014 school year started. Hopefully I would secure a job during the spring/summer.
But having to quit my job now derails us a bit because it brings up the question: CAN I student teach? CAN I finish my degree? CAN I even teach long-term?
And what's so confusing about all of this is that this is NOT the first time this has happened. Two years ago, I experienced similar, debilitating health issues and had to quit going to school and working. When I pulled out of school, the student teaching I was signed up to do the next semester was ruined. I had to pull out because I hadn't finished my course requirements. I was able to return to work part-time a few months later and have been doing good ever since.
But now here we are again... on the verge of finishing my degree and being smacked upside the head with all these issues that could possibly mean not being able to do anything I thought I was going to do.
It's just very confusing. I don't know if it's a God thing, a Devil thing.... or just a THING.
I know the only real thing I can do here is pray. Pray that God would answer that looming question and show me what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. Pray that God would show me if all these health issues are for a greater purpose or if they're just a stumbling block.
I'd like to get this blog "on track" and write about the topics I'd planned.... health and wellness during pregnancy, great recipes, workouts, etc. But right now, this is where I'm at with my pregnancy. This is where being pregnant has taken me.
I pray that your day and your week are a blessing! And I'll gladly accept any prayers and well-wishes for the situations our family is going through right now as we sort through this muddled mess.
Melissa
Friday, June 15, 2012
Being Pregnant... It Ain't For Sissies!
This may come off a little whiny (ok, maybe a lot whiny!), but it has to be said. This pregnancy stuff is not for sissies! I am just now 9 weeks into my pregnancy. Still SUPER early along. But the last 4-6 weeks have been ROUGH.
First of all, I am EX.HAUSTED. Imagine when you're sick with the flu or something, and you just can't get your energy up. That's me. I wake up tired. And then I try and sleep or nap and it's impossible. I've never had such awful insomnia. I can't get comfortable. I'm hot. I'm restless. And even when I DO get comfy, I just plain can't sleep. It''s 4:40 pm now and I've actually been in my bed since about 1 pm trying to nap. As has been the case almost every time for the last few weeks, I barely started to drift off and was woken up. Most of the time it's something (or some ONE ;-)) who wakes me, but regardless of what or who it is... I cannot ever get back to sleep. :(
Then I spend the rest of the day just wishing I could sleep because I'm right at that point of "I can't function without some more sleep". It's not a great place to be in =/
And I'm hungry. Oh my gosh, am I hungry! But I'm not craving fresh veggies and diet cokes... Oh no! It's pizza and Doritos, Frosted Flakes, and Italian food. I even scrounged through my wallet yesterday to see what kind of money I had so that I could get chicken nuggets from McDonalds! And if you know anything about me, you know McDonalds *repulses* me! Luckily, my husband bought a 20 pack for the 3 of us to share.... because I polished off ten or more on my own! =/
And then of course when it comes to eating any food I actually have on hand, I literally gag.
My nausea has subsided a *little*... but I'm still popping ginger root more mornings than not just because of the constant feeling of motion sickness.
Unfortunately, these are not the biggest of my problems. My adrenal issues have really been in full force just because of everything ELSE that's going on with my body. So I get to go see an endocrinologist soon, too.
And of course, I'm not complaining just to complain. I'm grateful that my body is doing what it's supposed to be doing to grow a hopefully healthy baby. I know that I have to make adjustments as these things come, but mostly I'm just glad that everything seems to be going good with the baby. They say that every pregnancy is different. And considering I remember Abbie's being a cakewalk, that couldn't be more true!
Melissa
First of all, I am EX.HAUSTED. Imagine when you're sick with the flu or something, and you just can't get your energy up. That's me. I wake up tired. And then I try and sleep or nap and it's impossible. I've never had such awful insomnia. I can't get comfortable. I'm hot. I'm restless. And even when I DO get comfy, I just plain can't sleep. It''s 4:40 pm now and I've actually been in my bed since about 1 pm trying to nap. As has been the case almost every time for the last few weeks, I barely started to drift off and was woken up. Most of the time it's something (or some ONE ;-)) who wakes me, but regardless of what or who it is... I cannot ever get back to sleep. :(
Then I spend the rest of the day just wishing I could sleep because I'm right at that point of "I can't function without some more sleep". It's not a great place to be in =/
And I'm hungry. Oh my gosh, am I hungry! But I'm not craving fresh veggies and diet cokes... Oh no! It's pizza and Doritos, Frosted Flakes, and Italian food. I even scrounged through my wallet yesterday to see what kind of money I had so that I could get chicken nuggets from McDonalds! And if you know anything about me, you know McDonalds *repulses* me! Luckily, my husband bought a 20 pack for the 3 of us to share.... because I polished off ten or more on my own! =/
And then of course when it comes to eating any food I actually have on hand, I literally gag.
My nausea has subsided a *little*... but I'm still popping ginger root more mornings than not just because of the constant feeling of motion sickness.
Unfortunately, these are not the biggest of my problems. My adrenal issues have really been in full force just because of everything ELSE that's going on with my body. So I get to go see an endocrinologist soon, too.
And of course, I'm not complaining just to complain. I'm grateful that my body is doing what it's supposed to be doing to grow a hopefully healthy baby. I know that I have to make adjustments as these things come, but mostly I'm just glad that everything seems to be going good with the baby. They say that every pregnancy is different. And considering I remember Abbie's being a cakewalk, that couldn't be more true!
Melissa
Monday, June 4, 2012
A Health Hurdle....
Ugh! My adrenal fatigue is worse than it's been in a long time. For those of you who don't know about adrenal fatigue or have not heard me talk about it before in my other blog, here are some resources :)
http://bodyecology.com/articles/adrenal_fatigue_symptoms.php
http://www.adrenalfatigue.org/
http://www.organicthrifty.com/2010/02/10/celestes-story-part-1recovering-from-adrenal-fatigue/
I have woke up the last two nights with a racing heart, which is a horrible feeling if you've never been through it. And it makes it somewhat difficult to go BACK to sleep. But last night took the cake. I spent basically the entire night awake. I was so wired and so exhausted at the same time. I was stressed, stressed, stressed! And the longer I was awake, the more I stressed.... thinking "I have to go to bed. It's our first day of summer school tomorrow. I have tons of things to do in the morning. It's 10 o clock... It's 11 o clock... it's 2 am. I have to go to bed. I have to go to bed" and on it went so that I eventually only got a couple of hours of horrible sleep. But my worst thought was "I'm so stressed. I'm going to lose this baby" :( :( I woke up this morning, drug myself to work, and greeted my students. Thankfully, after telling my boss about the night I'd had, she made me leave a couple hours into the school day. I came home, took an hour nap, and got up and regrouped. But I have to say I can tell that my adrenals are really slipping.
And if you haven't read the links and have no idea what adrenal fatigue involves, it's complicated. It basically requires REALLY good nutrition, REALLY good sleep, and living as stress-free as you can. That's all. :-/
So I'm trying to get back on top of it. I'm reaching out; I called my midwife's nurse. Twice. :/ And I'm trying to remind myself of what all I did to overcome this disorder to begin with.
But with all that being said, I have to say that I can be incredibly grateful that my adrenals are nowhere NEAR as bad as they were nearly two years ago. Even though they're worse than they've been in a long time, I know that it's manageable. A couple of years ago, it was barely manageable.
But I look forward to getting over this hurdle, talking to my midwife about it, and hopefully not having to suffer with this for too much more of my pregnancy.
Melissa
http://bodyecology.com/articles/adrenal_fatigue_symptoms.php
http://www.adrenalfatigue.org/
http://www.organicthrifty.com/2010/02/10/celestes-story-part-1recovering-from-adrenal-fatigue/
I have woke up the last two nights with a racing heart, which is a horrible feeling if you've never been through it. And it makes it somewhat difficult to go BACK to sleep. But last night took the cake. I spent basically the entire night awake. I was so wired and so exhausted at the same time. I was stressed, stressed, stressed! And the longer I was awake, the more I stressed.... thinking "I have to go to bed. It's our first day of summer school tomorrow. I have tons of things to do in the morning. It's 10 o clock... It's 11 o clock... it's 2 am. I have to go to bed. I have to go to bed" and on it went so that I eventually only got a couple of hours of horrible sleep. But my worst thought was "I'm so stressed. I'm going to lose this baby" :( :( I woke up this morning, drug myself to work, and greeted my students. Thankfully, after telling my boss about the night I'd had, she made me leave a couple hours into the school day. I came home, took an hour nap, and got up and regrouped. But I have to say I can tell that my adrenals are really slipping.
And if you haven't read the links and have no idea what adrenal fatigue involves, it's complicated. It basically requires REALLY good nutrition, REALLY good sleep, and living as stress-free as you can. That's all. :-/
So I'm trying to get back on top of it. I'm reaching out; I called my midwife's nurse. Twice. :/ And I'm trying to remind myself of what all I did to overcome this disorder to begin with.
But with all that being said, I have to say that I can be incredibly grateful that my adrenals are nowhere NEAR as bad as they were nearly two years ago. Even though they're worse than they've been in a long time, I know that it's manageable. A couple of years ago, it was barely manageable.
But I look forward to getting over this hurdle, talking to my midwife about it, and hopefully not having to suffer with this for too much more of my pregnancy.
Melissa
Saturday, June 2, 2012
A little over 2 weeks ago, we found out we were expecting our 2nd child. Although surprised (we weren't planning on getting pregnant for another few months),we were SO excited! One thing I was not excited about, however, was the fact that I had really wanted to get in shape this summer.
Now I am not big. I am not heavy. But before anyone throws stones... I want to say that this was not about losing weight or feeling smaller. It was about feeling BETTER and about being happy with where I was. When we found out we were pregnant, I was not happy with where I was personally.
And there's a lot of things that play into that. I have not actively worked out in probably 4 years. I have not frequented the gym since I was pregnant with our first child,Abbie, over 5 years ago. For the last 2 years, I have struggled with health issues that take a toll on my weight and my body, particularly
my belly (one side effect of my health issue is that you can tend to hold a lot of extra weight in your mid-section).
And since I started teaching again about 6 months ago, it has taken more of a toll on my body. (That'll happen when you don't ever say "no" to the mass quantities of cookies, cupcakes, donuts, and other things that are constantly brought your way.) And while I'm grateful to have such sweet parents and
coworkers who constantly provide those things, it does not do much for my fitness goals.
Add that to the fact that, while on my feet all day, the extent of my walking is limited to my small classroom and you've got a combination that is determined to spell weight-gain.
So I wasn't really surprised when I stepped on the scale for my first prenatal appointment and I was almost 15 pounds heavier than I was when I got pregnant with Abbie.
And it really got me thinking.... how do I keep this pregnancy from taking the minor problems I already have and making them major ones? I don't feel comfortable going out and getting a gym membership. I'm not going to start running 5 miles a day. Obviously, I won't be going on a crazy diet.
So my dilemma was... how do I at least somewhat meet my fitness goals and get to a healthier place WHILE growing a person inside of me?
I won't tell you I came up with some genius idea. I didn't. But I did vow to make this pregnancy a healthy and happy one.
The last two weeks have felt like 2 months. I have felt like I have car or motion sickness a good part of the day. I have had horrible headaches. I have been starving half the time and disgusted by food the other half. And it has been an adjustment for me because I never really felt like this with Abbie.
My health issues have made me even MORE tired, so much so that there have been days where I couldn't even completely finish my work day.
But on top of all that, there has been a voice in the back of my head telling me to not lose touch of my health goals.
So I started prenatal yoga. And I didn't let myself eat twice as much dessert just because "I'm pregnant". I remembered to take the herbs I take to stay on top of my health issues. I kept walking at least a couple of times a week even though I didn't feel up to it. I consciously remembered to eat enough vegetables (this is a problem for me as a picky eater, but veggies are also very important to my health issues). I've vaguely paying attention to calories, although I'm not counting. And I plan on doing all of that throughout this pregnancy.
I'll blog about work out routines, recipes, and any exciting things this pregnancy brings! I hope that sharing this awesome journey will hold me accountable and also be a little entertaining at the same time! ;-)
Melissa
Now I am not big. I am not heavy. But before anyone throws stones... I want to say that this was not about losing weight or feeling smaller. It was about feeling BETTER and about being happy with where I was. When we found out we were pregnant, I was not happy with where I was personally.
And there's a lot of things that play into that. I have not actively worked out in probably 4 years. I have not frequented the gym since I was pregnant with our first child,Abbie, over 5 years ago. For the last 2 years, I have struggled with health issues that take a toll on my weight and my body, particularly
my belly (one side effect of my health issue is that you can tend to hold a lot of extra weight in your mid-section).
And since I started teaching again about 6 months ago, it has taken more of a toll on my body. (That'll happen when you don't ever say "no" to the mass quantities of cookies, cupcakes, donuts, and other things that are constantly brought your way.) And while I'm grateful to have such sweet parents and
coworkers who constantly provide those things, it does not do much for my fitness goals.
Add that to the fact that, while on my feet all day, the extent of my walking is limited to my small classroom and you've got a combination that is determined to spell weight-gain.
So I wasn't really surprised when I stepped on the scale for my first prenatal appointment and I was almost 15 pounds heavier than I was when I got pregnant with Abbie.
And it really got me thinking.... how do I keep this pregnancy from taking the minor problems I already have and making them major ones? I don't feel comfortable going out and getting a gym membership. I'm not going to start running 5 miles a day. Obviously, I won't be going on a crazy diet.
So my dilemma was... how do I at least somewhat meet my fitness goals and get to a healthier place WHILE growing a person inside of me?
I won't tell you I came up with some genius idea. I didn't. But I did vow to make this pregnancy a healthy and happy one.
The last two weeks have felt like 2 months. I have felt like I have car or motion sickness a good part of the day. I have had horrible headaches. I have been starving half the time and disgusted by food the other half. And it has been an adjustment for me because I never really felt like this with Abbie.
My health issues have made me even MORE tired, so much so that there have been days where I couldn't even completely finish my work day.
But on top of all that, there has been a voice in the back of my head telling me to not lose touch of my health goals.
So I started prenatal yoga. And I didn't let myself eat twice as much dessert just because "I'm pregnant". I remembered to take the herbs I take to stay on top of my health issues. I kept walking at least a couple of times a week even though I didn't feel up to it. I consciously remembered to eat enough vegetables (this is a problem for me as a picky eater, but veggies are also very important to my health issues). I've vaguely paying attention to calories, although I'm not counting. And I plan on doing all of that throughout this pregnancy.
I'll blog about work out routines, recipes, and any exciting things this pregnancy brings! I hope that sharing this awesome journey will hold me accountable and also be a little entertaining at the same time! ;-)
Melissa
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